A lot of nights, I look back at my day, and am disgusted with how I spend my day. I "didn't have time" to exercise or read my Bible or play a game with my kids, but I did win a few computer games and read about all the things other people are doing in their houses.
I want my daily life to reflect what is the most important to me. I decided there were 3 things I want to have in each day:
1. Some time with God
2. Something active, which has to include my back exercises
3. Intentionally connecting with each person in my family
I am really good at feeling guilty about all the things I should be doing. All the things I think I should be doing overwhelm me so I don't do anything. I needed to create an achievable goal. "Lose weight" is too big and vague. Same with "keep the house cleaner" or "do a better job with my kids."
This I can do. If I do these three things, I can be okay with my day. Hopefully I'll get something clean in the house and make healthy food choices, but that will just be icing on the cake.
mmmm, cake.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Struggling and Blessed
I've been struggling.
Struggling to get out of bed.
Struggling to be productive on consecutive days.
Struggling to eat sensibly.
Struggling to be active.
I've been blessed.
My husband has stepped up as I've been gone more evenings and feeds the kids and puts them to bed.
My oldest daughter is blossoming into a beautiful young woman who (mostly) has her head on straight and takes joy in helping me.
My second daughter is loving basketball and giving us ample opportunities for training.
Number three is joyful and takes pleasure in making herself beautiful.
My five-year-old showers love on everyone and especially admires her two baby girl cousins.
The youngest girl works on making all the most expressive faces and wants to "nuggle" all the time.
My baby boy wraps his arms tightly around my neck and laughs infectiously.
I'm trying to find my way out of a tired, gloomy place. My circumstances will not change. I will continue to be busy, actually it's going to get busier.
"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule." Matthew 5:3 from The Message
I'm trying to figure out how to lean on God. What does that look like? How does he help me? I know he does, I see it after the fact, but how do I purposefully depend on him when I'm tapped out.
Help me, Lord, to choose patience and love and joy and discipline
when I want to yell and ignore and mope and eat.
Struggling to get out of bed.
Struggling to be productive on consecutive days.
Struggling to eat sensibly.
Struggling to be active.
I've been blessed.
My husband has stepped up as I've been gone more evenings and feeds the kids and puts them to bed.
My oldest daughter is blossoming into a beautiful young woman who (mostly) has her head on straight and takes joy in helping me.
My second daughter is loving basketball and giving us ample opportunities for training.
Number three is joyful and takes pleasure in making herself beautiful.
My five-year-old showers love on everyone and especially admires her two baby girl cousins.
The youngest girl works on making all the most expressive faces and wants to "nuggle" all the time.
My baby boy wraps his arms tightly around my neck and laughs infectiously.
I'm trying to find my way out of a tired, gloomy place. My circumstances will not change. I will continue to be busy, actually it's going to get busier.
"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule." Matthew 5:3 from The Message
I'm trying to figure out how to lean on God. What does that look like? How does he help me? I know he does, I see it after the fact, but how do I purposefully depend on him when I'm tapped out.
Help me, Lord, to choose patience and love and joy and discipline
when I want to yell and ignore and mope and eat.
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